At first I thought the best way was to block her on msn, keep a certain distance for a short while just to heal the wound. But there she was last night, how could I keep her blocked? She's been so nice to me, she really likes me (not the way I want to, though), so I couldn't do it to her. I unblocked her, we talked for hours and it was good.


We are 2 adults, right? There's no reason to behave like a teenager. Way before this situation happened (if it happened, you know? It could have been all my imagination playing tricks on me since the very begining) we were friends, new friends to be more exact. But 2 new friends that share the same interests on loads of things, think exactly the same on difficult and trivial subjects as well and like each other very much. There's a special connection. So the question is: why not stay friends?


That's what I've decided to do. I will try my best to transform my feelings into something else, something even more special. I'll still like her, I'll still care about her, but as a very good friend. Nothing more than that. Friendships can be forever, relationships tend to fail quite often (in my case it always fails).


This same situation happened to me 10 years ago. I liked a girl (and she will read this, I know) who liked one of my best friends at the time. I told her what I felt but it was a lost case because I knew what she really wanted. So she dated this friend of mine for 7 years or so. And well, 10 years later I talk to her more often than I talk to him. How weird, huh? We took separated ways, we haven't talked for a while, but life is weird and we suddenly started to talk to each other all over again like we used to. So that's what I meant when I wrote that friendship can be forever.


Now I'll move on, and the girl will help me. Because she's my friend and she wants me to be happy. I bet she has several girls to present me and she knows me so well that she knows exactly what I'm looking for...